They say there is a season for everything. A season for fun, a season for love, a season for travel, a season for contentment. I think this applies to all things, even running.
Hey everyone! How are you? Are you dying of heat like I am? The one good thing is that it wipes Annabelle out! I’ll take that Last night we ended up at the park after dinner and A was so excited to be on the swings. I mean, look at this smile!
Alrighty, enough chit chatting. Today, I wanted to talk with you about some running thoughts as of late. I’ve been thinking about it a lot, and suddenly found myself writing it out. Hopefully it all makes sense!
We’ve all heard there is a season for everything, right? It goes as far back as the bible, in Ecclesiastes 3 where we find:
“There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under the heavens:
4 a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
8 a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.
I feel like our seasons are constantly changing. It’s not uncalled for as our lives are constantly changing, but that doesn’t mean it’s easy. I went from a season of doing whatever I want, whenever I want, to a season of nap times, work, and keeping up with a little one. It doesn’t mean that I would change any of it, but it does make me reflect.
Running has been on my mind a lot recently. Specifically, the lack of consistent running I am doing. I started off running with my mom years ago, aiming for a 5k and then building up to a half marathon. I loved long runs. I loved heading out the door before the sun came up on the weekends and coming back before Aaron even awoke. I loved the feeling I got when I ran faster than the week before. At that time, my season of running was all about bettering myself. I wanted to go further, run faster, and train harder.
Just like life, my seasons of running have changed. I went from a period of running to train for a half marathon to training for nothing. I dove headfirst into speed work, long runs, and running for fun. I spent more than half of my pregnancy running for 2, completing a half marathon during that time. Those were all my seasons of running a lot (for me) and running whenever I wanted, however much I wanted.
My season of running is different these days, and it’s taken me a while to come to terms with it. I want to want to wake up early and get the long runs in, push through the heat, make my runs faster, push myself on distances. But the truth is, that’s just not my desire right now. My desire is to get out and go for a run some days during the week, moreso because Annabelle really does enjoy it and I do love it. But if it was a bad night, A is crabby, it’s raining, I try not to stress about not running. I fit in runs when I can, and make the most of them. If they are 2 miles, or 5 miles, oh well. I know times will change and one day I will want to go for long runs and start training for a new race. I will want to wake up early to get it done. I will want to focus on speed or distance. But right now, it’s just not what I want, and that’s ok. It’s ok to take things easier and just fit in what I can, when I can. There’s nothing in my life that says I have to run so many days a week and for so many miles. That was once in my life, and it’s hard to go without it.
I guess I’m writing this because I’ve been thinking a lot about it and it’s almost like I’ve felt guilty that I haven’t been getting up early and logging the miles. I haven’t been pushing myself on my runs. I haven’t even been making running a commitment. But here’s the thing, if someone else came up to me and told me all of this, I know I would turn their thoughts around and tell them how proud I am that they are just getting out there, and that they are staying fit, trying to fit exercise in, running a household, taking care of a baby, and working. I would focus on the fact that it’s not about what you aren’t doing but about what you are doing. So why am I not taking my own advice? Why are we so much harder on ourselves than others? I really wish I knew.
Though I talked about my season of life in regards to running, we can turn this to anything we are facing. I would love for you to take this message and cut yourself some slack. We’re all doing the best we can.