In the past year, I have planned a wedding, went on a family vacation, got married, went on a honeymoon, moved, done a lot of work on our house, became a wife, had two showers, improved my blog, managed holidays with two families, gotten AFAA certified, got a permanent sub job, worked full time throughout the year, kept up with the house, played dodgeball with friends, joined a life group, started teaching fitness classes, and probably more I can’t think of. I have never complained about doing any of that, and it amazes me to see everything I could do in one year.It’s a lot! I love being a wife, a teacher, a fitness instructor. I love having a blog, I love connecting with people. However, can you tell it’s been go-go-go for the last year?
It didn’t really hit me until the past few weeks. I am just burnt out. I feel like I have been pulled into so many directions, and not giving my all to any one area. When I’m doing one thing, I’m thinking about something I could be doing for something else. Today marks the beginning of my summer away from teaching. I say it like that because at this point, I don’t have an 8-5 job to attend to every day this summer. Yes, I did search for jobs. No, I haven’t found one. However, I’m finally okay with it. I know I will fill my days with a lot of other things. I have a to-do list for my blog a page long. I have workouts to make, music to download. I want to feel confident in the workouts that I teach others, and have the time to make them.
Is it funny that I stressed out about not having a job and going without pay more than Aaron did? When I finally became okay with taking time for myself, Aaron felt a sense of stress off his shoulder. He knows that I try to give my best to everything I do, but it’s a lot. For me to hear that he was actually relieved for me to stop worrying about finding a job was a shock. I didn’t even know I was stressing him out over getting a job, but I did.
Right now? I am okay with a bit of a break. Looking back on that list at the beginning reaffirms that there was a lot I did and was successful with, but it’s okay to take a break and work on other thing for a little bit. Maybe a job for a few days a week will appear, and if so, great. If not, that’s great, too.
I have a lot of fun things going on this summer (I’ll save that for another day!) and I’m ready to embrace it. I’m ready to reduce my focus from a million things to just a few. I’m ready to gear up for another school year next year.
So for the next 2 1/2 months, you can find me enjoying my days, and working on only a few things at a time instead of thinking about the 30 to dos on my list. I will be relaxing when I need it, and taking care of my body to keep it in great shape. And you know what? I’m really excited about it.
When do you take a break?
What’s something you want to put more focus on in your life?
Please don’t think I am complaining about doing anything in my life. I am most certainly not, and would continue doing it any day for the life I live. I give so much credit to those of you working all year round, and having multiple jobs.