After I had Annabelle, I wasn’t planning to return to work. Then, a few months later, I was longing for some adult time and feeling like I was doing something, so I found a job. (Background: I have a degree in education but getting a job in western PA is extremely difficult and I didn’t want full time at that moment). The job was three days a week and was perfect. I got out of the house, made some friends, and had some time to step away from being a “mom.”
Flash forward to having Nolan and these past three months have flown by. Not every moment has been perfect, but I feel like I’m just now starting to get in a groove and feel better taking both kids out places and just falling into a groove. So this time, I’m not ready to go back to work. I’ve really been loving this summer with both kids, playing with Annabelle, being there when she needed me, and obviously being there for Nolan. I’ve snuggled both my children a lot, laughed a lot, cried many times, and all around felt extremely lucky to have three months off.
But today is going to be hard. While I’m only going back two days a week, I’m still going to have to find a rhythm. No more lying around in PJs until 10 o’clock, or soaking up snuggles with Annabelle on the couch for an hour. The alarm clock will be set, and I’ll have to get dressed in real clothes (side note: I need new real clothes!). I know in the end it will be great. The kids will be well cared for and loved, and I’ll get that time to feel like an adult and have a chance to miss them.
But it won’t be easy. I cried a few times yesterday and I know I’ll be counting down until I see them again this afternoon. I feel for all the moms who have to go back full time!
I love these two kiddos so darn much!